It's Almost Over

This year has seriously been the most emotionally exhausting year of my life, so far at least. I've experienced the lowest of lows, but I've also experienced a lot of good. It has been a roller coaster ride for sure. I'm ready for this year to be over. I really don't want to go into detail as to what happened earlier this year, but it was definitely life changing. My life is going to be different for the next couple of years. At first I was really upset, it seriously felt like it was the end of the world for me, which in reality, it wasn't. A stupid mistake was made, and I've learned from it. I'm actually kind of glad it happened. With that and being flat broke, to not being able to transfer out of my college because I didn't pass one class, it was just overwhelming. Everything just happened all at once and I was so unhappy for a few months. I felt totally pathetic, like I had nothing going for me. I felt like I hadn't accomplished anything with my life. I've never felt like that before. I then realized that everything happens for a reason. Things could have been way worse, and maybe everything that had happened was some sort of sign that it just wasn't the right time to start a new chapter in my life. Eventually things started to look up. I got some money from a car accident I was in when I was 19. I got promoted at work, and school started to look promising.

I still feel like I'm in a funk though. Because I'm still dealing with the consequences of what happened. I'm just waiting for it to be all over. I'm waiting for this year to be over and start a whole new year, fresh! I'm really excited actually. I just wanted things to change, but now I'm going to have to wait, and it's okay I guess. Things will eventually fall into place. I was planning on doing so many things! And now things have been put on hold, and it just sucks. I just hope 2011 will be nicer to me. I am so lucky to have had my family and Christian by my side. I just want to feel proud and accomplished.